Who is reading my blog?

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I often wonder about the probably gay boy in high school or junior high...who late at night gets online and Googles his way here, or to somethingsaboutme, or alwayshard... or pictureperfect, Where I Stand, or charlie's blog, etc. [see my blog list...]

Maybe all he can do is read and can not even manage the nerve to respond! Even anonymously. Because even using a keyboard to admit he sometimes gets hot for boys is just too much to handle so far. But he's reading the blogs. He sees a story and wants to keep up.

So we bloggers form his support group. He kind of gets to "know" us in a sort of surprisingly close way. He sees that he is not alone. At 12 or 13 or 14... he's likely to feel very alone, different, even bad.

Maybe a little bit at a time he starts to feel maybe just maybe kinda sorta OK to get that gay feeling going. Perhaps he looks a little bit longer at hottie Jay [you know, he smiled at him last week!] on the swim team who he can not even manage to talk to without sounding like a damn dork. He sees guys here who are just a little older who have gone through a process he can HARDly conceive of. But they seem OK. They seem cool. They seem NICE, damnit. Jeeze... they have boyfriends. They have ginormous crushes on their best friends. [...just like me..wow..] He wonders again about inviting Billy for a sleep over.

So Johnny, or Timmy, or Erik, Blake, Chad, Danny, Paul, Lyle, Bobby [the cute one with red hair...remember him] ...we bloggers figure you are OUT there and watching. We want you to know it's cool. Hell, you might be gay or might not. You may just want time to figure it all out. And you will! Getting pubic hair and that first wet dream was compelling enough, huh?

Guys, it's a process. Each process is different. You get to be you! So enjoy. Maybe respond anonymously a little bit. When you are ready. Besides the porn sites, come by once in a while and enjoy knowing that there are lots of guys JUST LIKE YOU. We really do understand how you are feeling. There's lots more to all this than Internet nudie boys. Cute and yummy as they are, they are just part of it.

OK?

steevo in cali ...and a lot of other bloggers here who have formed our own little corner of gay cyberspace. Some of us are friends now. You could be too. Be strong.
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